…I live as if I’m going under!
I was in with the Aseans so deep and for so long that I cannot free my mind from them. Every turn I take is a risk I make of fusing my mind to them. Hence the marriage and fucking moving back home issue.
It is a BIG problem for me – I need to free my mind from them. Whilst also remembering not to go over to them – as in not jumping straight out of the frying pan into the fire.
I need to release myself.